英语翻译

Buoys up
Early morning receives the publishing house to last the paymentfor published piece also went to all debts also to remain.
Came back me after Shanghai to change the way which I lived,changedthe rhythm which I lived,from works now every day to work every dayfor more than hours to me for 18 hours.I reject besides the work allhuman communications.My demand time let oneself change joyfully getsup,I do not have lonely enough to have the important person to love,also does not have strongly enough to be allowed to neglect allinjuries.I knew she is the girl which cannot not love every day,onlyis was a pity I clear am somewhat late.I hoped she is happy joyfullyalso hoped she can understand,man's tears are want the precious thingcompared to anything
Only is did not know if one day her to discover I have her to be ableto come back look for me?
I tell oneself,tells own heart,one day,she also can love me.
I do not care about own position?
I defend my love,is my position.
Why winter like this is long,I must hibernate...